Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts

Thursday, October 29, 2015

Lichtenberg Castle Family Photos

One of my best friend's, Melissa, is a very talented photographer. I asked her if she would take some family photos for our Christmas card when Rob returned home to Germany from the States. We met her early on Sunday morning at Lichtenberg Castle near Thallichtenberg. It is about 30 minutes from our house in the Ramstein area, near Kusel. Lichtenberg Castle was built in 1200 and is the biggest castle ruin in Germany. Parking and entrance is free. Kids (and adults) have a lot of fun exploring the grounds and climbing the walls of this old castle. They have a small museum, an amazing restaurant and a little playground. 
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. A couple weeks ago I saw a very emotional photo of a couple with shadows of children representing the children they lost from miscarriage. It really touched me. I knew I wanted to create one and here it is. This photo shows our family of five, including my stillborn daughter, Addilyn and the baby I miscarried last month.  

Address of Lichtenberg Castle:
Burgstraße 12, 66871 Thallichtenberg

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Another Loss

Well it happened... we lost our baby :( I went in for an 11 week check up and found out our baby no longer had a heartbeat. What really added insult to injury was that Rob is stuck TDY for two months so I had to go through this alone. I opted to passing the baby and everything at home with drugs instead of a D&C. I have had AMAZING support here and am so thankful for such caring and loving friends. One of my friends even moved in for a couple days to help keep an eye on me and take care of Rand while it all happened. 

3 years ago, in April 2012, I had a stillborn. I delivered my daughter, Addilyn Elisabeth at 25weeks. I went in for a regular 25 week check up and saw my lifeless daughter on the ultrasound screen.


Now here I am, with 2 losses under my belt. My punch card has 2 to many and I am just lost. Why does this happen? What did I do wrong? Why me? I have been running so many questions through my head and have no answers. You  never think you will be the 1 in 4 to lose your baby but it happened, twice.